Forgiveness

   When you love someone or so much as care for them it doesn't matter what mistakes they make or how much they disappoint you, If  you really love them and you really care you will find it in your heart to forgive them. Keeping in mind that you yourself are human and for from perfect . We all make mistakes and will continue to make mistakes. God forgives us no matter how big we mess up even if you don't believe in him he still loves you and he still cares.

   Forgiveness is not just to benefit the person to which the forgiveness is granted, but it also benefits the person who grants the forgiveness. What sense does it make holding un-forgiveness in your heart ? Wouldn't  it be better to forgive and forget instead of keeping the anger, pain and disappointment all bottled up inside. It poisons you and makes you bitter towards people and life. Un-forgiveness is like a chain that keeps you bound , holding you back from going further in life.if you are always thinking of what was done to you in the past how will you heal ? And what happens when you treat other people badly just because of someone else's mistakes.that wouldn't be fair.

   You would then be the cause of someone else's pain. What if they don't forgive you and it goes on, A perpetuating cycle of  un-forgiveness and pain , Just because you couldn't be big enough , strong enough to forgive.  It takes humility to forgive not everyone is that humble. Maybe the reason you were disappointed was because your ego is too big, you're too proud, too self righteous. If you exalt yourself above others holding them to standards that you yourself fail to meet it is easy for them to disappoint you. If you just humble yourself just enough to forgive it would set you free.

Video : Forgiveness by TobyMac ft. Lecrae

A letter to my Friend

Dear Cupcake,

Often I think about how I feel
I wonder if this is even real
I've never thought I was capable of having these feelings
I never knew they existed inside of me
But now I've found my heart awakened
The very thing I thought was dead

I cant say how you make me feel
I don't think words would be enough

Every time you make me angry I just care for you more
I've fallen
A long way down
I've lost myself
A new me I've found
Someone greater
Stronger smarter

I've grown because of you
and I can't help but smile when I think of you
Maybe its just infatuation
because in all your humanness
and all your flaws
You are perfect
not because you hide who you really are
but because you're not afraid to show what's under your skin
and its beautiful, rough around the edges, jagged and uneven

Its takes my breath away, you take my breath away

I'm not what you want and i'm not what you think
I'll never be what your mind perceives

You have made me search myself
inside and out

I cant say I've decided to change for you
but i've done it for myself
I want to be a better person
because you have taught me so much

I Can't thank you enough
and I don't think you'd understand
what a better person I am
because you were honest and you didn't withhold the truth

You were always right and I should have listened
you changed me even if I didn't want you to
but it was for the better and I know that

This isn't in any order really I just had to write how I felt because I was drowning in my thoughts. I don't want to disappoint you or have you be disappointed in me because im not what you think or what you want me to be, because im not. I'm not my best right now and who knows how long it will take or if I will ever be. I'm not perfect and I will never be but I can try to be my best, and im not going to do it because of you but helped me to see that I wasn't trying hard enough.I have a lot to work on and I'm young and I'm stupid and i'm lost.i haven't gotten my life together but I will and I'd like so much for you to be by my side while I figure out all the craziness of life. I've never said this before but I look up to you, you are wise beyond your years and that is really hard to find and i don't want to give up this once in a life time friendship we have just because I was stupid.My life wasn't always easy but that doesn't give me the excuse to loose respect for myself and like you said what happened to me wasn't my fault but it honestly feels like it sometimes and i have hated me because of it but thats long gone and I have learned from it.Cant promise I wont be a bit of trouble sometimes but i promise you I'm worth the trouble you said it yourself. I don't know what else there is to say expect that I really appreciate you being there for me .


Your  friend,
Bunny