A letter to my Friend

Dear Cupcake,

Often I think about how I feel
I wonder if this is even real
I've never thought I was capable of having these feelings
I never knew they existed inside of me
But now I've found my heart awakened
The very thing I thought was dead

I cant say how you make me feel
I don't think words would be enough

Every time you make me angry I just care for you more
I've fallen
A long way down
I've lost myself
A new me I've found
Someone greater
Stronger smarter

I've grown because of you
and I can't help but smile when I think of you
Maybe its just infatuation
because in all your humanness
and all your flaws
You are perfect
not because you hide who you really are
but because you're not afraid to show what's under your skin
and its beautiful, rough around the edges, jagged and uneven

Its takes my breath away, you take my breath away

I'm not what you want and i'm not what you think
I'll never be what your mind perceives

You have made me search myself
inside and out

I cant say I've decided to change for you
but i've done it for myself
I want to be a better person
because you have taught me so much

I Can't thank you enough
and I don't think you'd understand
what a better person I am
because you were honest and you didn't withhold the truth

You were always right and I should have listened
you changed me even if I didn't want you to
but it was for the better and I know that

This isn't in any order really I just had to write how I felt because I was drowning in my thoughts. I don't want to disappoint you or have you be disappointed in me because im not what you think or what you want me to be, because im not. I'm not my best right now and who knows how long it will take or if I will ever be. I'm not perfect and I will never be but I can try to be my best, and im not going to do it because of you but helped me to see that I wasn't trying hard enough.I have a lot to work on and I'm young and I'm stupid and i'm lost.i haven't gotten my life together but I will and I'd like so much for you to be by my side while I figure out all the craziness of life. I've never said this before but I look up to you, you are wise beyond your years and that is really hard to find and i don't want to give up this once in a life time friendship we have just because I was stupid.My life wasn't always easy but that doesn't give me the excuse to loose respect for myself and like you said what happened to me wasn't my fault but it honestly feels like it sometimes and i have hated me because of it but thats long gone and I have learned from it.Cant promise I wont be a bit of trouble sometimes but i promise you I'm worth the trouble you said it yourself. I don't know what else there is to say expect that I really appreciate you being there for me .


Your  friend,
Bunny