Forgiveness

   When you love someone or so much as care for them it doesn't matter what mistakes they make or how much they disappoint you, If  you really love them and you really care you will find it in your heart to forgive them. Keeping in mind that you yourself are human and for from perfect . We all make mistakes and will continue to make mistakes. God forgives us no matter how big we mess up even if you don't believe in him he still loves you and he still cares.

   Forgiveness is not just to benefit the person to which the forgiveness is granted, but it also benefits the person who grants the forgiveness. What sense does it make holding un-forgiveness in your heart ? Wouldn't  it be better to forgive and forget instead of keeping the anger, pain and disappointment all bottled up inside. It poisons you and makes you bitter towards people and life. Un-forgiveness is like a chain that keeps you bound , holding you back from going further in life.if you are always thinking of what was done to you in the past how will you heal ? And what happens when you treat other people badly just because of someone else's mistakes.that wouldn't be fair.

   You would then be the cause of someone else's pain. What if they don't forgive you and it goes on, A perpetuating cycle of  un-forgiveness and pain , Just because you couldn't be big enough , strong enough to forgive.  It takes humility to forgive not everyone is that humble. Maybe the reason you were disappointed was because your ego is too big, you're too proud, too self righteous. If you exalt yourself above others holding them to standards that you yourself fail to meet it is easy for them to disappoint you. If you just humble yourself just enough to forgive it would set you free.

Video : Forgiveness by TobyMac ft. Lecrae

A letter to my Friend

Dear Cupcake,

Often I think about how I feel
I wonder if this is even real
I've never thought I was capable of having these feelings
I never knew they existed inside of me
But now I've found my heart awakened
The very thing I thought was dead

I cant say how you make me feel
I don't think words would be enough

Every time you make me angry I just care for you more
I've fallen
A long way down
I've lost myself
A new me I've found
Someone greater
Stronger smarter

I've grown because of you
and I can't help but smile when I think of you
Maybe its just infatuation
because in all your humanness
and all your flaws
You are perfect
not because you hide who you really are
but because you're not afraid to show what's under your skin
and its beautiful, rough around the edges, jagged and uneven

Its takes my breath away, you take my breath away

I'm not what you want and i'm not what you think
I'll never be what your mind perceives

You have made me search myself
inside and out

I cant say I've decided to change for you
but i've done it for myself
I want to be a better person
because you have taught me so much

I Can't thank you enough
and I don't think you'd understand
what a better person I am
because you were honest and you didn't withhold the truth

You were always right and I should have listened
you changed me even if I didn't want you to
but it was for the better and I know that

This isn't in any order really I just had to write how I felt because I was drowning in my thoughts. I don't want to disappoint you or have you be disappointed in me because im not what you think or what you want me to be, because im not. I'm not my best right now and who knows how long it will take or if I will ever be. I'm not perfect and I will never be but I can try to be my best, and im not going to do it because of you but helped me to see that I wasn't trying hard enough.I have a lot to work on and I'm young and I'm stupid and i'm lost.i haven't gotten my life together but I will and I'd like so much for you to be by my side while I figure out all the craziness of life. I've never said this before but I look up to you, you are wise beyond your years and that is really hard to find and i don't want to give up this once in a life time friendship we have just because I was stupid.My life wasn't always easy but that doesn't give me the excuse to loose respect for myself and like you said what happened to me wasn't my fault but it honestly feels like it sometimes and i have hated me because of it but thats long gone and I have learned from it.Cant promise I wont be a bit of trouble sometimes but i promise you I'm worth the trouble you said it yourself. I don't know what else there is to say expect that I really appreciate you being there for me .


Your  friend,
Bunny

I'm a liar and so are you

If I were to tell the truth I'd still be lying ,  for the turth I've been telling all along was simply a lie .

How many times have you lied so much that you no longer know what the truth is or have you been lied to so much its hard to accept the truth because you no longer know what truth is. Either way its sad because of what you've become behind  the lies you've told or behind the wall you've built up because you  can no longer trust.

It hurts being lied. That's the simple truth , no way you can hide from it or try to mask it. 

The hurt it causes especially to the people whom you said you cared for...its like holding a gun to your brothers head .. pulling the tirgger and saying that will help you live longer (that's what the lie is )
Pulling the trigger and and saying you're sorry while you watch him blees to death with a smile on your face (that's what the lie does )

I know its easy to lie in whatever situation it may be but it never stops there you will have to covee up that lie with another and and soon it becomes a habit and then you inherit a name ...you're a liar with a capitol L .

As it stands there is only one thing we can do ..start telling the truth.
And the truth is we all have inherited that name
Yes
I am Ashonelle and I'm a liar
That's what I've become after all the little white lies I've told but I'm making myself a promise to cut down on the lying
And my friend you should make that promise too

There is someone you've lied to out there and they've died because of the bullet you put in their head....find them , apologize and tell them the truth . You may just bring them back to life

Concord experience Barbados

This is a photo I took at the airport before my uncle left ro go back home , I have never been inside the concord but the outside is amazing as far as I have seen......I hope you will come to my beautiful island and see the many things we have to offer.

Abandoned cinema in Bridgetown Barbados

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School time

It's that time of year where all of us youngsters and in some cases oldsters return to the so-called empowering institutions . Which are in essence the building block  and  foundation of what we are to become in our individual society's . What society says is that your yeara in school and the events there-in re what shapes an individual and the society itself .
In some ways this is true in others not so much. what happened to the uneducated men and women that with hard work , dedication and good moral standing have moulded and sculpted their time into the 'good old days' we in this century long so hungrily to return too. Because the age we have created is just too depressing to endure.
We are an educated people this generation, fancy collages , universities and all these qualifications and stillnour world is total chaos
So do tell me is this 'school' thing really necessary ?
It infact is....being self sufficent in its continuity,  reason being the effects of school has some how created a world or mindset rather that only a 'paper qualified' individual is compatible or suited to  fit in an effectively bring some sort of sustainence to the fast pace economical industry / business world. And in order to do that attending school is requried/ mandatory.

So the reason we have to endure years and years of continuous work and study has been made simple . Now when you set foot in your institution this school year remember its all for the good of you , not torture or any such thing. But the insurace of living a comfortable life after much sacrifice. You will become an important part of society and if you work hard enough maybe even change it for the better.
After all school is not that bad because it's where your best years lie. And all the fun memories and good friends you make during that time become part of who you are.

HAPPY SCHOOL YEAR!!!
TAKE TIME TO ENJOY EVERY MOMENT AS A STUDENT .

Address the stress part 2: let it build up

I'm the type of person who is longsuffering...meaning you can bullshit me for a long time over and over but eventually when I've had enough , I'd snap and explode into a ball of hot fiery fury and rage..... A monster. No less than an always angry person. People like me tend to be passive and shy.We are usually overlooked and any consideration for our feelings disregarded.Not such a good thing for both the disregarder or disregardee .

That situation always ends in a shocking and catastrophic.Disregardee breaks under pressure and the disregarder or even an innocent bystander gets the full onslaught of the monsterous beast made as result of letting TOXIC stress build up over time.

With all that said this dangerous habit can easily be turned into an effective way to deal with stress (WARNING:  the following techique is not for all personslities use with caution) .
 
   *As stress builds up..... assignments overdue , busy schedule, hyperactive children, annying spouse, impossible coworkers etc. You just have to find yourself and stay calm always. Getting upset will only make things worse .

   *Find something that calms you , puts you in a zone ehere you are at peace and make it a habit to practice this when ever you feel a little stress coming on . This helps to control how often you get angry

   * Be passive in an aggressive manner .Don't provoke an argument of fight just because you're under stress (turn the other check) let God or Karma get that dumb boob back .

   *Meditate whether you pray,  read , listen to soothing music,  do yoga or whatever state/type of meditation you prefer .

   * Bring up how you feel in a  polite respectful way after it has gone on for too long or you have been suffering for too long. The point is get help , talk to someone about what you are going through.....let it all out , sing it out , write it out , draw it out, scream it out in the dark or even punch it out on something hard or soft. Doesn't matter get it out, without hurting anyone or anything.

After you have suffered long by the hands of a person , your emotions or assignments etc. It always helps to let it go , calm down and relax . Let the stress stay in until you're ready to release it , its toxic so don't let it stay for too long . I'm not saying hold onto your stress that's stupid , I'm telling you to stop blowing up let a war zone every time you get upset ...is it that unbearable that you can't just let it slide and keep your energy to sort things out instead of  making a big fuss over a minute matter.